I had no idea that a loving, committed partnership with my spouse meant loving with freedom and co-existing with my shadow loving myself. My thought process was always around giving up pieces of who I was as part of “the deal” to make her feel safe and secure. This was the loyalty mechanism that we have as men that in essence chips away at who we really are and what we can become. I learned from Finding Freedom in Love and the work with Journey Into the Heart that Love with expectations of results, outcomes, control, etc. is where I was able to shift from and move into love without attachment and strings.
The constellation work has helped me see whether my issues were solely personal or carried on by me through ancestors. In the constellations, the truth has been revealed to me, of the emotions and traumas that have been unexpressed for generations, making it hard for me to progress. I have felt freer in my own life to let go of trauma and to live more whole and to know myself more and more each time and with each day.
The part that impacted me the most was my interactions with the horses. I had a surprising result in that I was able to complete for myself my father’s untimely passing from 22 years ago. I would highly recommend anyone experience the gift and magic of these majestic animals. I uncovered much about who I am and an ability to release a lot of unnecessary emotional pain.
I have spent thousands and thousands of dollars on many healing modalities, however this is the only method that I’ve done that has taken me from surviving to thriving. No others have given me the relief of healing as deeply and quickly as the Shadow Clearing.
Through the work with Shauna, her team and the wonderful connections made, at first complete strangers than beautiful friendships, learning via 3D optics, the work is trans-formative. I learned just how much shame, guilt and resentment we hold and how crippling those emotions are. Through Shauna's work, I have been able to shift in a dramatic way, creating stronger relationships with self love and my divine creation. It is very hard at first being a skeptic, but curiosity won and for that am grateful of this discovery.
Doing the shadow journal has helped me to see behind my past abandonment issues. Feeling like I was never good enough for someone to stay and realizing that I am powerful and capable whether someone chooses me or not because I choose me.
Sure feelings of being alone can come up still but I used to make that into so much more than it had to be and have been enjoying my alone time so much.
And on the flip side noticing sadness around the boundary piece with that because it’s so firm that I won’t take others expectations that I make them feel good or any certain way. Knowing that may have the effect of them no longer around and that also feels great to know that I’m choosing people with integrity and boundaries in my life which I equate with healthier people.